Confessions of a Drama Queen

I try to ignore it but lately I noticed that I am falling into the trap again. Then, I got to thinking, is this just a habit or an addiction?

I am Julie, and I’m an addict.

I am addicted to watching series on TV. Yes, shows that got you hooked for the next ten years of life. It started with Alias…God, I’ve lost count how many times I’ve watched this show. Yes, ask me trivial things about each episode and I have the answer. I’ve cried with Sydney while the “In the Arms of an Angel” was playing in background, got mad at Vaughn for not waiting for Syd and got interested in Rambaldi. I will watch the episode over and over again and even memorize the lines until I fall asleep.

Then, I fell in love with Michael Scofield and the rest of the Fox River Eight, otherwise known as Prison Break, the series so tragic that it had me scarred for life. I can’t accept the ending that I don’t dare watch the season finale till now.

Then, I watched Grey’s Anatomy, the whole CSI’s, got lost on LOST, became desperate on Desperate Housewives, got insane with Ally Mc Beal and everything that is now showing on Fox Series.

Lately, the circles around my eyes were caused by Sex and the City. Yes, 6 years after the finale, here I am still as excited as ever. I got hooked on the girls and Mr. Big again.

This might be just a cure for boredom but why do i have to watch it over and over again?

I realized that I'm a closet drama queen, it’s my adult version of a fairy tale (only longer and with more drama) where every show must end in happy ever after. It’s my one hour equivalent of a Mills and Boon paperback. All of these shows gave me temporary escape from the chaos of this mad world and a plunge into a pool of emotions. After all, each of us had gone through roller coaster of emotions and are secretly longing for our own happy ending after all.

It was not an addiction. It was entertainment. The only difference between you and me is that I tend to dissect every parts of the show and memorize the lines and research on trivial things.

So, please excuse me as I watch how Carrie and Mr. Big bump into each other dateless on a boat and secretly hope that he leaves his wife for her…